[ Does he, really? Noctis' gaze tracks him when he pulls on the robe, jealousy giving way to an aching longing that is painful in the way it's been a part of him for as long as he can remember. Sated only when he pushes, when he presses into Ignis and disregards everything else while his wife sleeps in an empty bed. ]
Does she love you like I do?
[ Yes, he wants to know. He steps towards him and oh, how he smells of her and sex, and instead of being repulsed, he reaches to cup his cheek, sliding up to curl fingers in his unruly hair, falling all over his gorgeous face. Once upon a time, this was all for him. If he were younger, he would have given into the urge to lash out, to hurt him the way he's hurting right now, but oh, Noctis understands how Ignis hurts, too. This is an outcome they both hadn't wanted, and now there are three of them steeped in misery. Noctis had urged Octavia to find her companionship elsewhere, to seek her own partner who can give her what he cannot; but what about Ignis? Try as he might, he cannot let him go, cannot bring himself to ask him to do the same.
He will take him however he is, even after sex with another -- and Noctis can only be bitter about how far he's fallen, how he's never had a chance when it comes to Ignis. ]
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Does she love you like I do?
[ Yes, he wants to know. He steps towards him and oh, how he smells of her and sex, and instead of being repulsed, he reaches to cup his cheek, sliding up to curl fingers in his unruly hair, falling all over his gorgeous face. Once upon a time, this was all for him. If he were younger, he would have given into the urge to lash out, to hurt him the way he's hurting right now, but oh, Noctis understands how Ignis hurts, too. This is an outcome they both hadn't wanted, and now there are three of them steeped in misery. Noctis had urged Octavia to find her companionship elsewhere, to seek her own partner who can give her what he cannot; but what about Ignis? Try as he might, he cannot let him go, cannot bring himself to ask him to do the same.
He will take him however he is, even after sex with another -- and Noctis can only be bitter about how far he's fallen, how he's never had a chance when it comes to Ignis. ]