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𝔑𝔬𝔠𝔱𝔦𝔰 𝔏𝔲𝔠𝔦𝔰 𝓒𝔞𝔢𝔩𝔲𝔪 ([personal profile] nascere) wrote2020-12-16 10:13 pm

LET'S PLAY {open post}




[ open. texts, messages, rp prompts and starters. gen & nsfw. ]
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[personal profile] broments 2018-01-08 06:16 am (UTC)(link)
Mmn, perhaps later, if you ask particularly nicely.

[ He is not going to wipe his hands on his pants you uncultured heathen. Napkins will do well enough until he gets up to wash his hands, but from the way Noctis is reaching out to him, warm fingers dipping under his chin, that's going to be later.

Right now, he's tilting his head down a touch, shifting to accept the kiss and press a lingering one in return when Noctis asks that. Part of him wonders if it's just to hear it - surely, Noctis doesn't think that there was ever a point in time where Ignis didn't care? The problem wasn't ever a lack of caring. ]


I will tell you as many times as you need to hear it, but I never, ever stopped caring for you, Noct. The problem was I cared too much.
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[personal profile] broments 2018-01-08 06:48 am (UTC)(link)
[ Of course they're having a deep heart to heart moment on the couch and Noctis would ruin it by wiping his greasy hands all over his pants. He has to wash them anyway, but it's the principle of the matter, thank you. Then, Noctis clarifies what he means and Ignis' expression goes that careful, political blank as he tries to consider his words. Gently, he removes those hands and presses kisses to his knuckles instead. ]

I never doubted that you loved me. My...fear, I suppose, was that we both loved to excess. What was the point of everything we sacrificed to get here, if we were going to risk throwing it all away for ourselves? Everything we've done, we've done for the betterment of the country, her people.

[ It was only a matter of time before something gave; Ignis figured it was best that it was him, rather than Noctis or worse, Octavia. ]
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[personal profile] broments 2018-01-08 07:04 am (UTC)(link)
[ It'd taken him years to perfect it, but it's been endlessly useful since doing so. How many times has he been in meetings with pompous political idiots who thought they wielded more power than they actually did? How many times did someone try to exert some measure of power over Noctis by way of Ignis, and he had to hold back his anger at the idea of it -- that they would even try.

These days, it's more frequently used when he's trying to make certain that his expression doesn't give away the knee-jerk reaction before he has enough time to consider his words, or what he actually feels. ]


I'm not certain I can until you tell me what it is.
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[personal profile] broments 2018-01-08 07:21 am (UTC)(link)
[ The best and worst part about knowing Noctis sometimes, is understanding what he means when he says something, and knowing that it comes from a good place, despite the way it makes his stomach twist. Do it properly he says. Work with me to find a solution.

Logically, Ignis knows that he doesn't mean anything by it, but what were the last few months of their lives before Ignis decided that it was leave, because there was no other option? Noctis wasn't about to stop becoming king, and they were too new, too unstable to try and force their way into a deal that they couldn't back up with no military, nothing but a head of state back from the dead and the remains of a former political institution still trying to scramble themselves back together again and take care of their people.

Still, it stings in a way he wasn't expecting and gently, he removes his hands from where Noctis has held them, folding his napkin once, twice, before he catches himself and just holds it. ]


I attempted to find a solution with you, but the only ones available to us were continuing to lead an affair in the dark and risk Octavia deciding -- well within her rights, mind -- that enough was enough. Or, we could simply start a divorce there - before any of our projects were completed, before we had the help we needed to keep moving forward, before we had solidified ourselves as a power worth trusting, not just a haphazardly arranged political branch from a city. The only other option was to stop and I tried--

[ It's easier, to keep his emotions in check when it's just him, or politicians. With Noctis, it's harder and it shows, Ignis clenching at the napkin, jaw clenched tight a moment before he forcefully releases. ]

The only other option was stopping, and I wasn't strong enough to stop wanting you if I were here. There was no other option.
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[personal profile] broments 2018-01-08 07:59 am (UTC)(link)
[ The longer silence is not the most comforting and then when he continues, well. Ignis doesn't respond right away. Noctis has always asked more of him than anyone else - not intentionally, not because he wanted to, but Noctis' requests are always, always the ones that Ignis will bend over backwards for, outside the initial one by Regis to take care of his son.

He's not sure what this sounds more like - a marriage proposal, or an ask to never leave again, but either way, it doesn't matter right now. Marriage is so far outside the realm of possibility, despite the fact that once, Ignis had a ring in a box and a thousand words threatening to spill out of his mouth at any point in time before it all went to hell. If it's to ask him to never leave again, well, they've touched on this, and Ignis has essentially promised, but --

Rather than making assumptions, he should clarify. Getting emotional helps no one. ]


Perhaps you should specify what, exactly, you mean by that. What other sort of official capacity is there?
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[personal profile] broments 2018-01-08 08:13 am (UTC)(link)
[ Oh.

Oh. Ignis' eyes go wide, the only indication of shock but it's a clear enough one. He'd thought-- well, it didn't matter what he thought. The ring around his neck is warm with bodyheat, but suddenly it feels as if it weighs a hundred pounds, as if it's got the potential to be a noose. Just enough rope to hang himself and the king with, which is never a position he wanted to find himself in.

It's true that he'll need to sort out what exactly they are soon, but asking the day that everything was announced-? It's a logical progression, given the fact that Ignis knows there's no one else for him and it's even more logical knowing that the feeling is returned, after all these years, but -- ]


I...had assumed that would be a logical progression based on everything but it's not something that we can hope for any time soon. You understand that, yes? There are countless aspects to discuss, and the Council will have to be brought in for much of it. It's nowhere near as simple as things were. There's a timeline built into this, whether or not we like how long it may be.
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[personal profile] broments 2018-01-08 08:36 am (UTC)(link)
[ Any other time, he might tell him to wait. That he can't possibly know what he's going to want one, ten, fifteen years from now. Will eighty year old Ignis want the same things as he does now? He can't imagine that he will, given how much his tastes have changed over the years. There's no way of ever knowing exactly where he's going to end up or where Noctis will, but that's life.

Despite all of that, though, it isn't as if it truly matters. The world could be ending and his answer will always be the same. He may like different foods or different clothing, or a thousand other things that will change over the years, but one thing is constant and that's Noctis. ]


I was yours the moment I saw you in the throne room, Noct. I've been yours since before I could remember what it even meant to belong to someone like that.

[ He doesn't need to bring out the ring, but his fingers touch against it under his shirt like it's a worrystone, swallowing hard, his throat bobbing. ]

I love you a frankly terrifying amount, Noct. That's not liable to change ever, nor are the lengths I'm willing to go for it, for better or worse.
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[personal profile] broments 2018-01-08 09:24 am (UTC)(link)
Noct, the pizza-

[ It's a weak protest and he knows it. Ignis follows, because Noctis is his king and he would go anywhere, everywhere demanded of him. Once, the level of devotion he felt to the future king was terrifying. It was sobering to look at a man and be wholly aware that he would do anything to protect him, that he would burn the world down around them to keep him safe.

Much as he talks about keeping the country moving and making certain that they do right by it, that isn't, nor has it ever fully been his concern. Noctis is the one who must lead it, and Noctis' safety is the most important thing to make certain that happens. Whether or not Regis intended this terrifying level of devotion doesn't matter; it's where they're at and Ignis doesn't feel any inclination to change it.

He shrugs off his clothing once they make their way inside, enough that he can hang his suspenders up and toss his shirt into the basket. He keeps his pants on for the moment, leaning over to adjust the water temperature and then starts it filling from the dual heads at either side of the obscenely large tub. A moment later, he dips past to wash his hands -- properly, thank you, and then strips out of his pants, as well, leaving him in just his briefs and the ring hanging heavy at his throat. ]


When -- I'm not certain if I should even say this, but, when Ardyn threatened you -- you were passed out. When I used the ring. All I could think is that I'd let it burn - everything else, just to keep you safe. And I thought perhaps the years would temper that but instead it's only made it stronger.

[ Made it worse, maybe. It's clear that Ignis is hesitant to admit this, keeping his distance from Noctis for the time being, his fingers curled loose around the ring. ]

Such dedication can have its time and place, but it's also dangerous, Noct.
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[personal profile] broments 2018-01-08 09:54 am (UTC)(link)
[ I'll always be honest with you, he remembers promising years ago, when they were too little to understand the impact of their words or the weight such a promise would hold. As the years crept on, it became more evident; Ignis would be horribly honest at first until he learned how to blunt his words, how to soften them so they weren't an attack without meaning for them to be.

This, though. This is a whole other level of honesty. It's one thing to pledge yourself to your liege lord, one thing to devote yourself to their service, but it's something else entirely to look at a scale with Noctis on one side and the entirety of the world on the other, and to find the world lacking, light. To find that Noctis' worth weighs so heavily that there's never, ever been a question about it.

Then, for Ignis to tell him that? It's a great deal more than he's admitted in a long time, and part of him braces for the fact that Noctis won't accept it. That it's too much, that he never asked for this level of terrifying devotion from a childhood friend turned lover. He doesn't flinch at you idiot but it's a close thing as Ignis tries to decide if he ought to check on the water or fetch one of the bath bombs that was brought in with the latest shipment of supplies, some gaudy, glittery yellow ones that smelled like cloves. He needs to do something other than just stand there basically naked, tearing his chest open to hold his heart out and ask is this enough? ]


I didn't say I was-- proud of it. But Ardyn was - I couldn't let him. I wouldn't let him. If you weren't in it, it wasn't a world I wanted to be in, either.

[ Unsaid is that it's not just because of the prophecy, not just because Noctis was supposed to save all of them.

Ignis drags in a shuddering breath and meets Noctis' eyes through sheer force of will. ]


As I said. It's dangerous.
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[personal profile] broments 2018-01-08 10:28 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's one thing to have a king with dedicated soldiers following him. It's the mark of a competent ruler, that his or her men will follow them to the end of the world. After all, that was, effectively, what Ignis, Prompto, Gladiolus and the rest of their friends did, isn't it? They followed him to the ends of the world, almost to the end of all things and then back again. They made it through the darkest period of their world's time and lived to see it brighten again. Dedication is one thing.

This, though. This all-encompassing devotion, this knowledge that it has never been as simple as: Jump. And: How high, Your Majesty? This is dangerous and it won't ever stop being dangerous. It's one thing for a king to have dedicated soldiers. It's another for him to have one soldier, let alone others, who would jump when told to, but who would also kill when instructed without hesitation. The trust he has in Noctis doesn't know an end. If Noctis brought a man in front of him and said he dies, Ignis isn't certain he'd hesitate, and that's terrifying to think about. Not just that his devotion extends to the potential for murder, but a king who is aware of it can be dangerous all on his own.

It should scare him more than it does, it should scare Noctis more than it does, but instead Noctis is crowding against him, kissing him hungrily, and asking him to promise something that he has no right promising, because he knows he'll get a yes. ]


Never, Majesty. [ Ignis breathes, and cups his face with both hands, tugs him into another kiss that's furious and hungry in equal parts, the bath mostly forgotten for the moment as he puts to use every single bit of knowledge from their time together to kiss him within an inch of his life. When he needs to breathe, he draws back and drags his teeth over Noctis' bottom lip, eyeing the flushed swell of it, the way Noctis' cheeks are warmed. He's a weapon for his king to choose how to use and he trusts Noctis enough to make his king fully aware of it. ] Where you go, I go. But you have many years of being on the throne before we even have to consider such a thing, and if anyone seeks to cut that time short, know that I won't let them.
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[personal profile] broments 2018-01-08 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's a terrible thing, this knowing that the world is inconsequential when it comes to Noctis' safety and health. This isn't what Regis meant when he wanted Ignis to take over tending to his son, but it's what it's transformed into, for better or worse. There's precious little in this world that Ignis would hold anywhere close to the importance of his king, not that he'd ever go so far as to say it. He thinks that Gladiolus or Aranea, maybe, has an idea; when things were so bad that he had to leave, they'd never broached the subject but he could see it, sometimes, written on their faces when they looked at him.

Now, it doesn't matter. Now, Noctis' hair is mussed, his lips kiss-swollen and shiny and Ignis wants to protect him with everything he has, but also dig his fingers in so deeply that there's no chance they'll ever be separated again. Ignis can't deny him anything, not another kiss, more time, nothing that's within his power to give and if it isn't, Six help him, he'll find a way. ]


You don't intend to climb in like that, surely.

[ Ignis murmurs it against Noctis' lips, fingers working at the buttons of his shirt to start stripping him with single-minded effeciency. It's not the kind of haphazard stripping that comes with the all-encompassing hunger to get skin against skin, but it's terribly close, shoving Noctis' shirt over his shoulders, stroking his hands over bared skin with a sigh that's swallowed into another kiss. For once, he lets the clothing lay where it is on the ground; his fingers flick open Noctis' pants and shove them down, too, but he doesn't do anything else because he doesn't want to trip him up when he still has to work off shoes and socks. Gradually, he forces himself back, tracing fingers down Noctis' sternum, snapping the line of his briefs playfully and then steps back further so he's out of reach and can tend to the bath. He tests the temperature with a few fingers and then slides his briefs off, only to glance back at the clothing on the ground with a sigh, gathering it up because his nonchalance with it lasts only a few moments.

When that's finished, he climbs naked into the tub and submerges himself after settling his glasses off to the side, rising up, hands smoothing his hair back out of his face. Teasingly, as if they haven't just bared their souls to each other:]


Hurry up.
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[personal profile] broments 2018-01-09 12:54 am (UTC)(link)
[ He's half-hard but it's not what he's focused on at this point; physical concerns can be addressed later and he's far more preoccupied with watching Noctis climb into the bathtub, naked, all long, lean lines and elegance. That noise of amusement doesn't get past him, either; Ignis quirks a half-smile at him in response, knowing what it's in reference to. Messes last a grand total of a few minutes around him, despite his best efforts to try and ignore them. ]

A habit I'll likely never be able to shake, sadly.

[ Almost hungrily, he watches one long leg slide into the water, and then the rest of him follows and Ignis waits until he's settled before crossing the distance at Noctis' request, water rippling behind him. There are two seats at either end, so he straddles Noctis' lap to settle there and strokes wet hands over the broad spread of his chest, exploring, admiring rather than attempting to start anything just yet. The shampoo bottle gets a glance and obediently, Ignis dips his head in a little bow, one damp hand resting on the curve of Noctis' shoulder, the other stroking wet lines across his chest, his arms. ]

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